I just lost it. Did you ever put so much effort in one task, only to find out that you need to be doing something else? Blows the wind off my sails.
To top it off, I got really pissed off. No one to blame, so I had to eye someone. Bad of me, I know. But I just really lost it. I felt it was unfair that I did not know on time that I had to do something, and I did not know it was me who's supposed to do it. Miscommunication, chaos, call it whatever. The point is, I missed the point.
So, ranting and grumbling I went. Tried to do what I need to do as cheerfully as I could. But you could not discount the fact that I was a b*tch. Now, I'm done with the task and had the chance to think.
Being pregnant puts you in a rollercoaster ride. One minute you're giddy and happy, the next, you are angry sometimes sad and crying buckets. So, on my way to my 2nd trimester, I am looking forward to easier times.
Good thing, God gave me the grace to humble myself and apologize. It would be better had I controlled myself in the first place, but I'm just human. Next time I see red, I'll just color it green.
